Another weekend has passed and I've completed another overnight at McDonalds. Do I think any better of working the shift? Nope! Its almost in fact that I feel worse about it. The weekend has just flown by and I feel like I got absolutely NOTHING accomplished; not a thing.
To me, it feels as if all I do as of late is Eat, Sleep, Work.....REPEAT. Not like I really have a social life, but it would be nice to at least have an option to be able to go somewhere or hang out with friends (at least if I had many).
I'm always concerned about making sure I have enough sleep to get through my work day. Whether its working early (having to go to bed early so I can get enough sleep this end) or doing an overnight (pretty much having to sleep all bloody day). Its just so frustrating!
Sunday, January 29, 2012
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
It's Just Going Around I Guess
Well as I prepare to get ready, as best I can, for my 3rd overnight shift by myself...I have realized that I haven't got it yet. Tyler had it, Ethan has it (badly); just not me yet.
Ethan had a doctor's appointment today with Dr. Cavanaugh because Ethan's appetite had dwindled, had small diarhea, and his temperature has soared (highest it got was 101.9!!!). Just towards the end of Ethan's exam the Dr. looked in E's mouth and said "Oh my!" His tonsils were red and swollen which is why Ethan wasn't eating so much because it was probably irritating his throat. My poor Bubby!!! So now the little man is on some amoxicillan and hopefully that will clear it all up!
I hate this feeling of trepidation about working overnights. I have good crew tonight, but I just hate the feeling I get of not wanting to leave Ethan even if its with my mom or Tyler. Hopefully the time will go by quickly and I will get to have my boys in my arms again!
Ethan had a doctor's appointment today with Dr. Cavanaugh because Ethan's appetite had dwindled, had small diarhea, and his temperature has soared (highest it got was 101.9!!!). Just towards the end of Ethan's exam the Dr. looked in E's mouth and said "Oh my!" His tonsils were red and swollen which is why Ethan wasn't eating so much because it was probably irritating his throat. My poor Bubby!!! So now the little man is on some amoxicillan and hopefully that will clear it all up!
I hate this feeling of trepidation about working overnights. I have good crew tonight, but I just hate the feeling I get of not wanting to leave Ethan even if its with my mom or Tyler. Hopefully the time will go by quickly and I will get to have my boys in my arms again!
Sunday, January 22, 2012
Closeness: Only counts with horseshoes and hand grenades
I believe it suits me best that when I feel that I need to blog that summing up the weekends happenings in one blog is better...I think.
Saturday: Today was chance number 3 for Tyler to take his EMT-B examination (in Bloomington). This time it appeared to me that he did try harder to study, but I wasn't always around him to see how much effort he put in to this.
Since I knew I didn't have to work until 10pm I had a boat load of free time to waste today. Should I have spent it cleaning up the house, ya, probably so, but I ran an errand and the lightbulb went off in my head. Oh I can go play BINGO!!! I knew I had to pick up some milk I did that but afterwards I felt lost. I knew I should eat something as it was lunch time, but with all the choices that lay before me I...just...did...not...know :(
Tyler called later on to say that he was finished with his test and that he was in his way back. He asked what I had planned (Bubby was at the inlaws) and told him that I was actually on my way to Majestic Hall. We both played several games and were super close, but being close only counts in horseshoes and hand grenades.
Work went a billion times better tonight than it did the last time that I had to work an overnight. Previously I was wrote up for a bogus ass rule that I just signed the written warning for just so I could get out of work because normally I would've been out of there at 6am and the clock currently said 7am...wth!!! People have told me that I should fight it, even though I was not penalized in any way, shape, or form. My thought is just "whatever".
Sunday: Today didn't start off the greatest especially since I didn't make it to church, and that is what usually helps me relax and get pumped for the week ahead of me. After I did wake up from a quickie nap, it was around 10:30am and my tummy was growling!!! After we finally started getting ready like we were actually going to do something with ourselves it was close to 12:30pm (and Tyler had to work at 2p). Well push come to shove, we yelled at each other for what seemed like forever (perhaps around 3-5 minutes) of solid yelling. Its just exhausting sometimes when he gets so moody and irritated and you can't tell him one thing without getting an attitude. I hate feeling that the only way to get a point across to him is by yelling.
Saturday: Today was chance number 3 for Tyler to take his EMT-B examination (in Bloomington). This time it appeared to me that he did try harder to study, but I wasn't always around him to see how much effort he put in to this.
Since I knew I didn't have to work until 10pm I had a boat load of free time to waste today. Should I have spent it cleaning up the house, ya, probably so, but I ran an errand and the lightbulb went off in my head. Oh I can go play BINGO!!! I knew I had to pick up some milk I did that but afterwards I felt lost. I knew I should eat something as it was lunch time, but with all the choices that lay before me I...just...did...not...know :(
Tyler called later on to say that he was finished with his test and that he was in his way back. He asked what I had planned (Bubby was at the inlaws) and told him that I was actually on my way to Majestic Hall. We both played several games and were super close, but being close only counts in horseshoes and hand grenades.
Work went a billion times better tonight than it did the last time that I had to work an overnight. Previously I was wrote up for a bogus ass rule that I just signed the written warning for just so I could get out of work because normally I would've been out of there at 6am and the clock currently said 7am...wth!!! People have told me that I should fight it, even though I was not penalized in any way, shape, or form. My thought is just "whatever".
Sunday: Today didn't start off the greatest especially since I didn't make it to church, and that is what usually helps me relax and get pumped for the week ahead of me. After I did wake up from a quickie nap, it was around 10:30am and my tummy was growling!!! After we finally started getting ready like we were actually going to do something with ourselves it was close to 12:30pm (and Tyler had to work at 2p). Well push come to shove, we yelled at each other for what seemed like forever (perhaps around 3-5 minutes) of solid yelling. Its just exhausting sometimes when he gets so moody and irritated and you can't tell him one thing without getting an attitude. I hate feeling that the only way to get a point across to him is by yelling.
Thursday, January 19, 2012
Phone, Where are you phone???? (A little heavy)
I was going to take a chance at my second chance at college today when I went to see about a class at Richland Community College. Randomly during my computer time yesterday (Tyler and I now are sharing my computer because his computer went to crap), I thought about looking to see what classes this semester are either online or a hybrid that way I could maybe, just maybe, take a class. On our way there I thought about my previous semester's bill and not really ever remembering receiving a notice saying that it was paid in full. Upon getting to RCC I was just going to try to sign up for the HLTH 140 (medical terminology) class but Tyler brought up the fact of the previous semester's bill.
Well I went to the cashier's office to find out whatever the balance was, the lady said that it was $600 and that it had to be paid in FULL before I could sign up for any other classes. RCC said that they try twice with the auto payments and after that they stop. Well, we NEVER received a notice saying that they stopped trying and that I still had a balance. They shouldn't assume that people have the internet readily accessible and check their balance online.
Ugh! While Tyler & I just got paid and had the money in the account, it would just kill us financially if I were to have paid off the bill ($600) and signed up for the payment plan for HLTH 140(3 payments of $90; 1 month at a time until the bill is paid off) AND the cost of the textbook ($50). That and the class actually would've started TODAY so I knew it was a long shot. Oh well!
Walking out of the University of Decatur-Northside, I was a little down. Tyler had tried asking me what I wanted to do next, as if to try and cheer me up to no avail.
With a sleepy "Bubby" we went to eat at a yummy place called Buffalo Wild Wings. The last time we went there when Ethan had missed a nap time like this, he just was so unconsolable and made a huge scene even though our waitress was super sweet and totally understanding. This visit was smooth.
Going back to the class thing, I had a last ditch effort idea to pay off the bill. To win enough money on a lottery ticket would have been AWESOME and with my luck it could have been slightly possible. Two tickets, same game; Tyler got one ticket and I the other, but the last effort failed and I have to move on :(.
Almost a daily occurance, I lost my phone AGAIN!!! Beyond frustrating, I wonder if Tyler knows how upset I get with myself when I am constantly losing things and my mind just blanks completely. I am lucky when I can partially trace my steps back to maybe narrow down the location of my things. Sometimes I have joked that I have young persons Alzheimer's disease, but with each passing day and each time I lose something I get more and more bothered by it. Its like there is nothing that I can do, and I just hate having absolutely NO control over something. I JUST HATE IT!!!!
Well I went to the cashier's office to find out whatever the balance was, the lady said that it was $600 and that it had to be paid in FULL before I could sign up for any other classes. RCC said that they try twice with the auto payments and after that they stop. Well, we NEVER received a notice saying that they stopped trying and that I still had a balance. They shouldn't assume that people have the internet readily accessible and check their balance online.
Ugh! While Tyler & I just got paid and had the money in the account, it would just kill us financially if I were to have paid off the bill ($600) and signed up for the payment plan for HLTH 140(3 payments of $90; 1 month at a time until the bill is paid off) AND the cost of the textbook ($50). That and the class actually would've started TODAY so I knew it was a long shot. Oh well!
Walking out of the University of Decatur-Northside, I was a little down. Tyler had tried asking me what I wanted to do next, as if to try and cheer me up to no avail.
With a sleepy "Bubby" we went to eat at a yummy place called Buffalo Wild Wings. The last time we went there when Ethan had missed a nap time like this, he just was so unconsolable and made a huge scene even though our waitress was super sweet and totally understanding. This visit was smooth.
Going back to the class thing, I had a last ditch effort idea to pay off the bill. To win enough money on a lottery ticket would have been AWESOME and with my luck it could have been slightly possible. Two tickets, same game; Tyler got one ticket and I the other, but the last effort failed and I have to move on :(.
Almost a daily occurance, I lost my phone AGAIN!!! Beyond frustrating, I wonder if Tyler knows how upset I get with myself when I am constantly losing things and my mind just blanks completely. I am lucky when I can partially trace my steps back to maybe narrow down the location of my things. Sometimes I have joked that I have young persons Alzheimer's disease, but with each passing day and each time I lose something I get more and more bothered by it. Its like there is nothing that I can do, and I just hate having absolutely NO control over something. I JUST HATE IT!!!!
Sunday, January 15, 2012
Can you hear that noise?.....No?.....Well I can :(
This has been the most action packed weekend that I have had in a while...sad I know, but hey I do the best I can with what I have; that and I am in Decatur and I didn't leave the town the whole time...not bad right?
Friday-True it was Friday the 13th but I don't think too much about it. I don't go out of my way to avoid the day but I won't celebrate it either. All the people on facebook who talked about getting Friday 13th tattoos are just dumb. Why put something on your body so permanent that doesn't really mean a thing at all and spend money on it. There is someone in particular who, maybe a month or so ago, talked about how they weren't going to be able to give their kids a decent Christmas because of a court proceeding that had frozen their bank account. It even went as far as asking people to donate to an account that they could access the money to be able to spend on Christmas...
I'm kind of glad I didn't donate (not like we had the money to give ourselves), especially since they wasted someone's money on a Friday the 13th tattoo. Now it seems like they have so much money to spend and not really saving much of their paychecks at all. Are they dumb? Did they forget how they asked people for money and now that it seems like they have it, they aren't saving a dime??? I realize that the courts had frozen the bank account but they can still save away even in just a shoebox at home.
Sleeping in until 8am now is such a total luxury, and on this day off of mine I slept in until...roughly 7:30a which I'll totally take since I am usually at work by 4:45a. I completed another part of my CNA journey at about 11:15am since that is when I finished taking my state exam at RCC. Some of the questions were like "What the hell?!?!?!" The professor definetly did NOT cover some of the material that was in the test.
Alot of the girls from class (okay, maybe just about half of the class) got together for a lunch at Buffalo Wild Wings. That place is so much about sports, which I love, and the food is YUMMY! As a mommy I enjoy the place because they have several high chairs and booster seats. Plus a nice clean bathroom with a changing station! The place I would highly recommend!
Friday night was just plain awesome-ness!!! Even though it was a bit cold and windy out, Lexie, Ethan, & I (in one car) and Tyler in the other went out to the St. Louis Cardinals' Caravan at the old Holiday Inn. Lexie was just so excited to get to meet REAL players who got to play in the world series. The best part for me was that I got to win 2 things in the raffle amongst the several hundred people who attended. I now have a World Series Champion DVD and t-shirt!!! Winning!
Saturday-Ick, well I guess I had to work sometime this weekend and it went by especially fast because I got sent home early because the business was just crawling along. Saturday night, we had a ladies party watching Miss America. "Grammy", Lexie, & I all watched and thought that the winner (Miss Wisconsin) was such a beautiful and gracious winner. Lexie was able to spend the night and how I wish that I was able to stay up a bit longer because she wanted to watch a movie, but I was soooooooo tired.
Sunday-Nothing to exciting to the start of this particular day, but I did make breakfast!!! Go me! Went to church which is always so nice and relaxing except it wasn't. The ringing in my ears came back as it does from time to time, but today it roared it ugly head around lunch time.
Friday-True it was Friday the 13th but I don't think too much about it. I don't go out of my way to avoid the day but I won't celebrate it either. All the people on facebook who talked about getting Friday 13th tattoos are just dumb. Why put something on your body so permanent that doesn't really mean a thing at all and spend money on it. There is someone in particular who, maybe a month or so ago, talked about how they weren't going to be able to give their kids a decent Christmas because of a court proceeding that had frozen their bank account. It even went as far as asking people to donate to an account that they could access the money to be able to spend on Christmas...
I'm kind of glad I didn't donate (not like we had the money to give ourselves), especially since they wasted someone's money on a Friday the 13th tattoo. Now it seems like they have so much money to spend and not really saving much of their paychecks at all. Are they dumb? Did they forget how they asked people for money and now that it seems like they have it, they aren't saving a dime??? I realize that the courts had frozen the bank account but they can still save away even in just a shoebox at home.
Sleeping in until 8am now is such a total luxury, and on this day off of mine I slept in until...roughly 7:30a which I'll totally take since I am usually at work by 4:45a. I completed another part of my CNA journey at about 11:15am since that is when I finished taking my state exam at RCC. Some of the questions were like "What the hell?!?!?!" The professor definetly did NOT cover some of the material that was in the test.
Alot of the girls from class (okay, maybe just about half of the class) got together for a lunch at Buffalo Wild Wings. That place is so much about sports, which I love, and the food is YUMMY! As a mommy I enjoy the place because they have several high chairs and booster seats. Plus a nice clean bathroom with a changing station! The place I would highly recommend!
Friday night was just plain awesome-ness!!! Even though it was a bit cold and windy out, Lexie, Ethan, & I (in one car) and Tyler in the other went out to the St. Louis Cardinals' Caravan at the old Holiday Inn. Lexie was just so excited to get to meet REAL players who got to play in the world series. The best part for me was that I got to win 2 things in the raffle amongst the several hundred people who attended. I now have a World Series Champion DVD and t-shirt!!! Winning!
Saturday-Ick, well I guess I had to work sometime this weekend and it went by especially fast because I got sent home early because the business was just crawling along. Saturday night, we had a ladies party watching Miss America. "Grammy", Lexie, & I all watched and thought that the winner (Miss Wisconsin) was such a beautiful and gracious winner. Lexie was able to spend the night and how I wish that I was able to stay up a bit longer because she wanted to watch a movie, but I was soooooooo tired.
Sunday-Nothing to exciting to the start of this particular day, but I did make breakfast!!! Go me! Went to church which is always so nice and relaxing except it wasn't. The ringing in my ears came back as it does from time to time, but today it roared it ugly head around lunch time.
Sunday, January 8, 2012
Those Religious People...
Just the other day, while I was at work, Tyler said that one "of those religious people" came to our door. He didn't answer but said that they had left a few tracts about the end of the world. I mean really, already, wow! Later on, I heard from Tyler that he had ripped up the paper and threw it in the road a little while after they drove off. Come on now! Our town is already dirty enough as it is. I got mad at him for littering; it sounds petty but I wasn't going to budge from my stance.
Only a short 5 days from now, I'll be taking my state certification exam for becoming a CNA. Yesterday I took a practice exam, and got an 85%; today was better and recieved a 92%. I wonder if anyone has received a perfect score on the test...I think that some (or all) of the girls from my class are going to get together again after our test. I do hope that they will want to go where Tyler and I went today for lunch.
Today was a day off from work and should've been completely relaxing but completely was not. All day I have been in an irritated funk...all day and I really want to get out. I think that the worst of all happened when Tyler, Ethan & I went to Buffalo Wild Wings for a late(r) lunch. Stepping inside the place, its like a total sensory overload unless you're going there specifically to watch the BIG GAME. So close to his nap time, Ethan was a ticking time bomb and he just exploded shortly after we got our food. I was just getting overwhelmed because he only calmed down (slightly) when someone got up with him and felt like it was usually me and that MY food was getting cold. :( I wanted to give in and just get our food to go so that Ethan would calm down, because all the eyes that were on us each time Ethan wailed were so unnerving. We finished our rushed, busy lunch with one lesson learned...we can't go out to eat or anywhere for that matter anytime near Ethan's nap time because it just won't end well. And yes Tyler helped as much as he could especially considering I didn't ever calmly ask for help.
Only a short 5 days from now, I'll be taking my state certification exam for becoming a CNA. Yesterday I took a practice exam, and got an 85%; today was better and recieved a 92%. I wonder if anyone has received a perfect score on the test...I think that some (or all) of the girls from my class are going to get together again after our test. I do hope that they will want to go where Tyler and I went today for lunch.
Today was a day off from work and should've been completely relaxing but completely was not. All day I have been in an irritated funk...all day and I really want to get out. I think that the worst of all happened when Tyler, Ethan & I went to Buffalo Wild Wings for a late(r) lunch. Stepping inside the place, its like a total sensory overload unless you're going there specifically to watch the BIG GAME. So close to his nap time, Ethan was a ticking time bomb and he just exploded shortly after we got our food. I was just getting overwhelmed because he only calmed down (slightly) when someone got up with him and felt like it was usually me and that MY food was getting cold. :( I wanted to give in and just get our food to go so that Ethan would calm down, because all the eyes that were on us each time Ethan wailed were so unnerving. We finished our rushed, busy lunch with one lesson learned...we can't go out to eat or anywhere for that matter anytime near Ethan's nap time because it just won't end well. And yes Tyler helped as much as he could especially considering I didn't ever calmly ask for help.
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
E made a friend
Tired! Tired! Tired! Tired! Tired! Tired! Tired! Tired!
I think that I have pretty much summed up how I felt after working my first (of hopefully not many) overnight at work. It wasn't that it was super busy or that I had some rude customers but it was totally unrealistic of how it would actually be when I do an overnight by myself as a manager. There were 5 people there working it as opposed to the usual 3.
The whole shift was a blur anyway. I went in and it was dark, when I left it was still dark and when I got home it was dark. But as soon as I layed my head down on my oh so comfortable looking pillow it was light and appeared that I would definetly NOT get any sleep. The feeling just running through my body was strange because it felt like the previous 8 hours just was a void and didn't happen.
Later on, Tyler, Ethan & I went to really our sad excuse of a mall to walk around and I went because I certainly couldn't fall asleep. Yet another store is closing at HPM! Is it really the economy in general or just the Decatur area? I had gone into the Kitchen Collection before but never bought anything because the salespeople always attacked you the moment you walked into the store. So the stores closing within the past few years are: Pac-Sun, Kitchen Collection, Old Navy, Waldenbooks and then there have been stores that have moved from location to another location within the mall...which is TOTALLY ANNOYING!
The best part of the trip out there was when Ethan got to play in the kids area of the "food court". The absence of all the big kids was kind of nice because E man had free range of the place. And finally a little 2 year old girl came to play as well. Ethan enjoyed getting to play with someone else his age and he played peek-a-boo with her as well. This little girl could walk and run easily and everytime she would run Ethan just laughed out loud. She was just tickled pink each time Ethan giggled. He ended up giving up the little one a kiss on her cheek! What a little gentleman!!! :)
Tomorrow is hopefully going to be smooth because I would like to take Ethan to the library for Baby Talk...we'll see because I could be super tired.
I think that I have pretty much summed up how I felt after working my first (of hopefully not many) overnight at work. It wasn't that it was super busy or that I had some rude customers but it was totally unrealistic of how it would actually be when I do an overnight by myself as a manager. There were 5 people there working it as opposed to the usual 3.
The whole shift was a blur anyway. I went in and it was dark, when I left it was still dark and when I got home it was dark. But as soon as I layed my head down on my oh so comfortable looking pillow it was light and appeared that I would definetly NOT get any sleep. The feeling just running through my body was strange because it felt like the previous 8 hours just was a void and didn't happen.
Later on, Tyler, Ethan & I went to really our sad excuse of a mall to walk around and I went because I certainly couldn't fall asleep. Yet another store is closing at HPM! Is it really the economy in general or just the Decatur area? I had gone into the Kitchen Collection before but never bought anything because the salespeople always attacked you the moment you walked into the store. So the stores closing within the past few years are: Pac-Sun, Kitchen Collection, Old Navy, Waldenbooks and then there have been stores that have moved from location to another location within the mall...which is TOTALLY ANNOYING!
The best part of the trip out there was when Ethan got to play in the kids area of the "food court". The absence of all the big kids was kind of nice because E man had free range of the place. And finally a little 2 year old girl came to play as well. Ethan enjoyed getting to play with someone else his age and he played peek-a-boo with her as well. This little girl could walk and run easily and everytime she would run Ethan just laughed out loud. She was just tickled pink each time Ethan giggled. He ended up giving up the little one a kiss on her cheek! What a little gentleman!!! :)
Tomorrow is hopefully going to be smooth because I would like to take Ethan to the library for Baby Talk...we'll see because I could be super tired.
Sunday, January 1, 2012
2012....
2012...
We're one day into the new year and hopefully we're all still here, that everyone had a safe & fun New Years' Eve. :)
I had an enjoyable few days off from McDonalds but I'm not so sure about the week ahead of me. They are making me train on overnights and if they think that I will open my availability to actually work overnights...Well, lets just say that I am going to open up where I'm applying to for a CNA position from just hospitals to nursing homes/assisted living facilities as well. I don't make as much money with my job and I am NOT going to jeopardize his job if they want me to do overnights.
I hate that I wasn't invited to a family get together for NYE. That I (well, and Tyler) was conveniently NOT told about it and had to find out about it from bloody facebook. Its like they ONLY want to see Ethan. I wish I could shake that feeling but I can't and then if we don't bring Ethan they make us feel bad about it.....we just can't win.
We're one day into the new year and hopefully we're all still here, that everyone had a safe & fun New Years' Eve. :)
I had an enjoyable few days off from McDonalds but I'm not so sure about the week ahead of me. They are making me train on overnights and if they think that I will open my availability to actually work overnights...Well, lets just say that I am going to open up where I'm applying to for a CNA position from just hospitals to nursing homes/assisted living facilities as well. I don't make as much money with my job and I am NOT going to jeopardize his job if they want me to do overnights.
I hate that I wasn't invited to a family get together for NYE. That I (well, and Tyler) was conveniently NOT told about it and had to find out about it from bloody facebook. Its like they ONLY want to see Ethan. I wish I could shake that feeling but I can't and then if we don't bring Ethan they make us feel bad about it.....we just can't win.
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